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Axxa.

24yrs. Pisces

You've got such beautiful words but none which block the rain, bandage my wounds, nor build a home.

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Sunday, December 29, 2013

Sometimes you move so well, it's hard not to give in. i try to think hard enough, I can't tell where you and I begin. If I never see your face again, I don't mind. Cause we've gone much further than I thought we'd get.

Friday, December 27, 2013

why do we keep doing things for people whom we know won't appreciate any of our efforts. and why do we have such joys in our heart when we do things for them. seeing that smile on their face even when deep down we know they doesn't deserve any of it.

cruel game you're playing there god..

Wednesday, December 25, 2013

My life gets kinda boring. I need another story. Something that i can confess so i can get it off my chest. Till my sleeves are stained red from all the truth that I've said.
Come by it honestly I swear. Thought you saw me wink? No. I've been on the brink. 
So tell me what you want to hear? Something that will light those ears.
i'm sick of all the insincere. So I'm gonna give all my secrets away.
This time, don't need another perfect lie.

My God, amazing how we got this far. It's like we're chasing all those stars. And everyday I see the news, all the problems that we could solve. And when a situation rises, Just write it into a song. Send it straight to gold. But I don't really like my flow in this. I've got no reason, shame or people i can blame. 
Just please don't let me disappear. I promise i'll tell you everything.

i so done with everything. i'm sick, i'm tired, i'm hurt and all of this is a joke to you. congrats on winning the jerk of the year award.

Tuesday, December 24, 2013

had a great movie date with my silent boy. i still have yet to watch starving games. )): and i wanna go ikea. loads of places to be before the year end! gdnight lovelies.

xoxo.

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Monday, December 23, 2013

unlike the rest of the world who are fast aslp at 3am, then there is me, waiting for like an eternity for my clear peel mask to solidify. i shit u not this thing works like magic. baby skin. soft baby skin after taking the gunk off your face. which are visible on the sheet apparently. i cant remember if its a buck or 2 at Sasa. bottomline is, it's dirt cheap. just 1 sachet(2 application) and last for a month!

anyway, argued with squishy about canceled plan today. fucking hates it when that happens. normally i'm esctatic abt it unless it's with someone i actually wanna see. it takes a mere min before i turned full blown medusa lol. but we made up(: WITHOUT cursing, swearing, shouting, and all that finger pointing! i know! amazeballs. this friendship thingy going on, is really working out. amen to that. lol.

on a sidenote, now i crave egg prata. oh god.
help.

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Sunday, December 22, 2013

there's a hundred different things i wanna say. upmost of all, i miss you. like the sun missed the stars.

that's a lot if u dont get my reference. lol. who am i kidding. of course u wouldnt get it! i love you anyway(:

goodnight my little angels. goodnight squishy.

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Friday, December 20, 2013

an attempt to cheer myself up, i googled my name up and this is what came off on urban dictionary. it's really funny. where do people came up with such things?? as far as i know my name is a coffee brand in Australia. that's it to it. but wow. haha!



p.s: i still miss you despite all this so really we now know for sure where the fault lies. i'll pay to get selected memory loss right now. erase march 2013 till dec 2013. anyone?? please??

came across some shit i'm pretty sure i'm not suppose to know. i think. sucha bummer. yeap. the night got ruined just like that. i'm back to secretly wanting to punch you. hell, knee kick ur head if i could. next time make sure i dont outsmart u when u lie abt something? because really, u fucking sucks at lying.

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Thursday, December 19, 2013

today was quite productive. caught up with my sec sch classmate while running errand for squishy. just a tip gentlemens; complaining abt stuffs and trying to outsmart the sales assistant could put u off to the wrong foot. its really unflattering and not all girls love drama. i personally dont care and hate the hassel. whats so hard being nice. they prob had a long day):

then went over to hougang to meet up with L who got shot for some reason. poor baby was writhing in pain so i agreed to acc him for early supper. he was perfectly fine when i met him btw. sure his hand is a bit bruised but mostly fine.

i'm so thankful for today. we had the most perfect conversation since forever. the world really seems like it's shining its brightest. thanks god. thanks for not forgetting about me. i love you so much. amen. (:

p.s: careful of the cold weather lovelies! i finally got a chance to wear out my parka today(:

p.p.s: tried to trick squishy into telling him there's a tornado in sg. little did i know he alr read the news so he knew it was actually just a water sprout so i came off as stupid and in his word "pitied" my diploma cert. hah! mean assssss! if i hadnt alr love you, i would had feel insulted and kick ass your butt so bad!! lol.

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Wednesday, December 18, 2013

spend christmas early with my fav boy. fav company. mcwings. fav fries. perfect weather. and sweetest you. what more could i ask for? maybe the break up was for the better. we're great friends now. not so much tension. lesser drama. lesser getting agitated. girls still flocking at u. and me still wanting to murder them. though albeit lesser. lol. the things i wanna be thankful for this year is meeting you. thanks for coming into my life and make my world beautiful again. even for a short period of time.

i love you squishy. you'll always hold a special place in my heart.

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Tuesday, December 17, 2013

salmon and egg taste disgusting together! bleahh. my first benedict and sucha disappointment.

i missed u a lot today. thanks for your kind heart and understanding. always the best. hee.

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Monday, December 16, 2013

this is so true and so bloody sad. i will forever lose hope in humanity.

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Sunday, December 15, 2013

boring. sedih. geram. ))))): boleh jadi gila sak duduk rumah mendak nak mampos. lagi dgn ziana zain-menadah gerimis tak henti-henti dgr dari tadi. asal ni. nak uzur eh. emosi dah terpeleot tak tentu pasal. maybe should go for hormone replacement therapy. jadi jantan sikit. kan best jadi mcm korang. takde perasaan. hahaha. kay tak semua lah. urghhhh. i'm still sad))): fuck.

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first attempt at trying chic curry from ginza bairin. this better be 15 bucks worth it! i skipped a queue from monster curry just for this! note; cupwalker milk tea taste wayyyyyyyy better then each a cup. why it's 90 cents more ex is beyond me. and homefront was really fucking good! heads up to stallone. someone still knows how to run an action movie after all. cant wait for starving games! i'm actually sad right now. heartbroken even. lord i need a breather. u ungrateful asshole. i hate u)))))))':

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went out for some impromptu bbq stringray session at newton circus with my ex bf of 8 years. damn, i forgot how hot he is. lol! now i feel like meeting up all my ex bf. hahaha! reminded me of the time i used to go only for looks. sue me. but i've learn my lesson in there somewhere. really. "the heart wants what the heart wants."
i like to believe god is fair. once i've settled in, pls let me see how beautiful the world is again. i still miss you but i miss you less today. that counts for something right?(: gdnight lovelies. hope your day is better then mine. ❤

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Saturday, December 14, 2013

every now and then i keep being reminded of my shattered dreams. lol! takpe bukan rezeki aku lah tu. haha. amik kau. pasrah la sangat. hee.

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Friday, December 13, 2013

i want to know how belly came to existence. cause i have one right now from only eating once a day for the past 2 months?! what?! how?! fuck?! ): this isn't fair. i skipped my fair share of delish supper just for this stupid shit. no more maggie goreng. no more teh panas. no more roti prata egg. masih ah tak nak kasi aku chance ade flat stomach. -.- maintain kay asik kasi aku sedih tak tentu pasal. kay, nak merajuk. bye! x.

Thursday, December 12, 2013

it's times like this i qns myself is it worth it waiting for u close to 2 hours alone when i'm fragile to my own mind. and then i see u, right in front of me with that nonchalant face of yours without a hint of guilt making your way here taking your own sweet time. not today, i said to myself. because of all the way u makes me feel, i still feel jitters deep inside me. we're suppose to be over. but i gladly take this chance to have u right in front of me over anything else. how the fuck do i get over you seriously?!

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Wednesday, December 11, 2013

spent the night away sending my resume. doesnt it angers you when a job scope includes must have experience??? being a fresh graduate i feel insulted. how else do i gain experience if you dont want to hire me?. makes sense? oh and another if they include must be able to speak mandarin. WTF. mandarin is not even the first language here in singapore! and i’m almost certain that our citizens are freaking educated. all, even the uncles and aunties knows how to speak english! bleah nonsensical. anyway, pray for me. i really need a stable income. part time job just doesnt cut it anymore sadly.

i like to believe god is fair. but time and again, i always find myself at the merciless hands of sorrow. don’t i too deserve happiness or is it beyond achievable since whenever i find someone content on living with no matter the circumstances and most i must say put me in the risk of hurt, u still take them away from me. right now i am almost certain u dont even want me to be happy else why do u keep taking them away from me.. i’m tired of getting hurt.. i’m tired of crying. why are you doing this to me.. can u make the pain stop pls… let me let him go.